Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Dali Lama


My last day in Wellington this time around was also the day the Dali Lama came to town. I asked the universe to let me see him since I did not have a ticket, the 8,000 seat Arena had sold out. Walking to my yoga class I cut through the James Cook Hotel and felt his presence. I sat down. A car pulled up, I looked behind me, he was in a black car, sitting in the passenger side, front seat. He got out, came into the lobby followed by security. I stood up, bowed, took his picture, and bowed again.

Next time I'll ask the universe to see AND hear him. I missed his message but Rose said later over tea and cake that he talked about family, mothers in particular. On TV the night before a reporter asked him if he can remember his past lives and the Dali Lama said no sometimes I can't remember what I did yesterday. His message: develop a smart mind but also develop a compassionate heart. He said he may be the last Dali Lama.

It was sad that the Chinese Government pressured Helen Clark the Prime Minister of New Zealand to not meet with the Dali Lama and so there was no formal event with NZ's PM. This saddens me. The Chinese Government also pressured PM Howard of Australia to not meet with the Dali Lama and he told them to stuff it. One news report quoted Howard as saying: 'we will not put trade before human rights.' Ah, election years are so full of hope.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Bundles of Grief: Dead Son



"Dead Son" String, found stone, Pukerua Bay: From "Bundles of Grief" small sculptures. Pataka Museum, Exhibition, Porirua, NZ Nov 2005

Saturday, June 16, 2007

What I do what I don't do


What I do what I don’t do I have noticed revolves around results, I will do this and get that, if I don’t do this I won’t get that, if I do that then maybe this will come and the maybe is the thing that makes me feel powerless, it’s a game although I don’t really think game fits what I am feeling I don’t feel like a game but I do feel someone has created the board I play on and I do feel that a roll of the dice is acceptable and there are rules, yes rules, if I could find out what the rules are, if the rules did not change so much I could learn and play real hard and win as if I don’t have a thing to say about it at all but I know I do or rather I do have a choice on how I react to all that goes on around me because I have faith, in certain faiths one believes my way or god’s way and then god helps those who help themselves and let it go and let it be and then some rocker said let it bleed and I guess that is more how I feel, let it be and bleed and just be because its always been this way or as some say sometimes it bees that way.

Monday, June 11, 2007

An American: Powerful Muscles



Powerful Muscles afraid to relax
they have now become men
power against her the state
it’s no longer a healthy restraint

so we choose cowardice
through what? violence
she’ll turn the other check
so we choose reality
through what?brutality
and regain your manhood for her her her her her her
the state

What have you said if your dead
if it’s in your head what have you said
you can’t revive what’s alive
and if it’s dead what have you said

so choose cowardice
through what? violence
she’ll turn the other check
so we choose reality
through what?brutality
and regain your manhood for her her her her her her
she's the state the state the state

Helen Thomas



Something happens when we are in a foreign country and hear news about our own country or someone from there, from where we used to be.

Helen Thomas, journalist for Hearst Publications was interviewed, on the phone, by Radio New Zealand, May, 2007. Here are some things I heard that I found inspiring about a true American!

Helen Thompson has been covering the news under 9 presidents in the USA beginning with John F Kennedy. She is a self-declared liberal.

She said getting her start as a woman journalist was easy because at the start of WWII all the men were drafted. She said she will never retire. “Why would I retire? I love my work.” She’s in her 80’s.

Thomas said all administrations are somewhat secretive but (the present) George Bush is more so. As a member of the White House Press Corp her job is to ask the questions. It’s been a year since she asked President Bush a question; her last question was, “Why did you go to war?” Since Bush has not asked her to ask him a question since, (this is how it works) she says she must rely on the other journalists to ask the questions.

Thompson says that she writes a public opinion column, in which she has opinions but is not biased. She’s not an objective reporter, she writes in hopes of influencing people because she is not running for any thing. For example, she writes about why it is wrong to torture. She hopes she can persuade people to also believe it is wrong.

She said George Bush Senior understood foreign policy but was not great domestically. In the first Gulf War Bush knew not to go to Baghdad because there would be a civil war.

Check out her column: helent@hearstdc.com

Twilight in Pukerua Bay



view of Kapiti Island
Pukerua Bay





Twilight

From here
You are brown and green
Cold blue and
Breaking waves the color of caramel
Rocks that were brown in
Setting sun are now
Black in twilight
And the flax rattles
Like a dog panting
After a run

Saturday, June 09, 2007

New Song "You Take Yourself With You"


Photo: Tree Root: Waihonga Centre, Otaki River, NZ

Take Yourself With You
in Am (of course)

A 4 chord song to be posted on website soon

Didn’t think I would make it
didn’t think I’d get home in time
in time to tell you
I don’t know
why I left

can’t say I missed you
so busy being alone
had to get right back to where I started
to remember what went wrong

they say you take yourself with you
no matter where you roam
everywhere you go there you are
never far from home


I could get back on a plane
after I pick up my bag
had to go half way around the world
to realize I was already okay

they say you take yourself with you
no matter where you roam
everywhere you go there you are
and you thought you were alone

Monday, June 04, 2007

Boulcott & Willis Sts., Wellington

Studio 54 and Cocaine

Studio 54 and Cocaine: Alcohol industry pushes cocaine.

It is the tobacco and alcohol industry that has the most to gain from cocaine addiction.

Quite sweeping, but here is the evidence.

Watching a documentary on studio 54 last night, in its heyday, the 70’s, (disco!) one comment struck me: a man said, everyone was doing it, the papers said it was not addicting, it made you feel intelligent and that you could do anything. And, you could drink all night long.

Well, not everyone was doing it, but at Studio 54 all the "beautiful" people were at Studio 54 and most were probably doing it and they all believed it was non-addicting. (By the way, anyone else remember that disco was NEVER cool?) Even if you felt hooked, which certainly many must have, everyone was having a good time. I remember parties in New York in the early 80’s where complete strangers would offer cocaine to anyone near by. It was easy to buy. The senior secretary at the law firm I worked was the buyer there. It was not a social stigma. It took a while for people to see the negative effects.

HOWEVER, and herein lies the social contradiction. In 1973 the Rockefeller Drug Laws were created making it a Class A Felony to possess 4 ounces or sell 2 ounces of cocaine with a sentence of 15 years to life MINIMUM sentence; and sale of one-half ounce or possession of two ounces was a mandatory 3 years to life.


I remember the first person who offered me cocaine in the late 70’s: P in Detroit but I said no, I had a young child. (I love my old self). He assured me it just makes you happy. He was right, I took what I believed was a harmless substance and gleefully cleaned the house (mother’s little helper.) And I didn’t crave it again. I kept a little in the cupboard along with a bottle of scotch for company. If someone came by I would offer them coffee, scotch or a line. They were out of luck though if they were looking for grass, I did not like marihuana at all. It gave me the munchies and made me feel I had no control. (Like the man said, cocaine gave you the illusion you could do anything.)

So, who benefits from telling the public cocaine is safe? There must have been studies to the contrary. Why would the public be lied to in the mainstream press?
Who profits? Who gains? Since it is an illegal narcotic, it cannot exist without some form of police/government cooperation. And the spill off is the alcohol and tobacco industry, because as any addict knows, when you do cocaine you can also drink more. Drink more and more, puffing on your ciggie butts (as we called them when we were kids) without passing out. Party on!

It’s not hindsight that makes it acceptable that someone made a mistake designating cocaine safe. It was a known addicting narcotic. It’s always been known that people, in particular workers in South America are allowed the ‘habit’ of chewing on the leaves while they work. There is plenty of data on this in Peru and Bolivia. There is evidence from the 11th century that coca leaves were sacred and used in religious ceremonies. Like tobacco was used by the native American Indian until they were introduced to alcohol and guns and then their land was stolen and they were allowed to return to it in the form of a reservation. And now they sell cartons of cigarettes at a discount.

June 4, 2007

Saturday, June 02, 2007

First Tamarillo


Delicious tarty New Zealand fruit

Burger King Ad Update

There have been interesting comments by people in the media laughing at the removal of the Bikini-clad Burger King Girls' advertisement, as if bikini-clad women were a threat, abusing women again through their laughter as if we don't get it, suggesting we should all lighten up a bit. It's not the women in the ad and it's not the bikinis. It's simple: the objectification of women and their body parts is degrading, and when the intention is degradation for profit, it's a cultural and social problem. Take this simple test: Would you brag to your mates that it is your mother or your daughter making references to blow jobs, same-sex group sex, and golden showers to sell a hamburger?

It would be interesting to see who the creative team was behind this ad.

Retreat

June 2007, once again I am counting down to the day I leave here again, this time for a different reason than exactly a year ago. Here are two recent photos taken at the Waihonga Retreat in Otaki where Patience is buried.


Crying Tree
and

My cabin: Silence near a stream

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Britney Spears - Doesn't Exist

Ad Bites the Dust after 7 complaints.

Sky TV (cable in NZ) billboard was selling its services using a photo of Britney Spears climbing out of a car, camera angle looking up her skirt revealing she was not wearing underwear. Panties were drawn over her crotch. Slogan on ad: “Something Everyone Wants To See”

7 Complaints were filed and were upheld by the Advertising Standards Authority. Lawyers for Sky and the Ad agency, DDB New Zealand’s defense was that it appeared the complainants were unaware Spears had been pictured last year getting out of a car without underwear because the idea for the ad was that people wouldn’t want to see Britney’s bits(Kiwi slang for any thing) but there was something they would want to see on Sky.

Huh? In other words, the defense was based on the premise that it’s okay to degrade women if you are making fun of them. I don’t think 7 complaints would have made any difference in New York. Sometimes it is nice to live in a small community. However, this ad would never appear in New York either. For a small country there are a large amount of ads here which depict women in an extremely degrading way, on billboards and on TV.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Burger King and Dangerous Diane

It's only been days since i posted my blog about BURGER KING with it's highly misogynist TV ad (see description below) and I'm happy to report it no longer exists!!

Since I have never seen a complaint about this ad anywhere, I can only guess that my blog must have made a difference. Yeah! We can change the world and make a difference.

On other bad advertising: Ribena, a sugar water drink has been deliberately misrepresenting itself as containing Vitamin C for years. It took three high school girls to test the stuff to discover it contained no Vitamin C. It's only fair to say the girls contacted the company first to inform them, they were ignored. And now ribena has an ad on TV explaining it was not their intention to mislead people, it was their methods of testing.

Poets and Writers

Living in New Zealand I missed the magazine Poets and Writers. It wasn't available at the library and no store would order it for me, so I put in a special request at the library and they said, "we'll see." After five months of waiting, it is now available in the literary section. If nothing else, I can be proud of this cultural import from the U.S. to New Zealand. My experience of Kiwi hatred of what they consume from the U.S. is interesting, but Poets and Writers is a fine publication I'm sure New Zealanders will love.

Monday, May 14, 2007

This strange land called New Zealand

Musings about this strange land called New Zealand for May

Kiwi TV: I only get 3 channels and one fuzzy music channel.

The best show: Kath and Kim, an Australian show (an import) about making fun of the affluent working class. Very funny and someday (in the art imitates life file), we will see that this show arguably predicted the fall of the economy for its hilarous send ups to the disease called consumerism.

Music video: Avril Lavigne, Celine Dion’s bastard child’s new video "Girlfriend" is about the joys of bullying: stealing another woman’s man just because she can and hurt her too, emotionally and physically to the amusement of the extras.

Ad for Kiwi Police: 4 blokes bored about one of their mates re-telling some ‘work’ story, selling the idea that you will have better work stories if you join the New Zealand police, destroying any credibility of belief that there is privacy when one is a victim of a crime. No matter what you do, you may be a story too around the barbie. Nominated as the number one irony ad for the stories that have surfaced lately about the conduct of the NZ police: rape, bestiality, group sex, and more.

Ad for Burger King: The most degrading women’s ad on TV I’veg seen this month. Four young women, called BK girls (it sounds like BJ girls) in bikinis sharing everything together, from bikinis to a bed to a burger king hamburger (with head thrown back and wide pouting lips) to golden showers....(golden showers: actual words in the narrated voice-over of this ad) to describe the bikini clad women dancing in water from what appears to be a garden hose sprinkler.

Ad: runner up for worst of May: Toyota promoting its car with a film showing two cars racing. Bad taste considering how many people are killed (and some become martyrs)die every month in NZ from ‘boy racing”. The police claim to be helpless to stop it. I have a suggestion, take away their license AND the car.

TV news: two Pakeha reporters grinning ear to ear as they "report" the latest "news" on Paris Hilton as if their reporting on her sentence is at a higher level than what she did to get 45 days in jail (driving with a suspended license for drink driving because she doesn't read, only signs what she is told to sign, hence not knowing she signed a document that her license was suspended.)

Runner up for best TV show: coming

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Transylvania Review by Spodarek

As part of the World Cinema in Wellington, New Zealand, I reviewed this film for Lumiere Reader.

Transylvania, by Tony Gatlif, opens with beautiful images of the Romanian countryside shot from a moving car, from different angles, in slow and fast motion, blending rich colors of browns, beige, yellows, grays and decay until the car stops in a small village. Zingarina (Asia Argento) and her two girl friends wander around looking for Zingarina’s Romanian lover, Milan, (Marco Castoldi) who suddenly disappeared and left her in France.

Read more: http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/924

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Dreaming New Zealand



"Dreaming New Zealand" A videotape by Diane Spodarek & Jay Yager, Spidershack Productions, 3 min. 2006. Photo stills: Jay Yager. See Jay's website: www.spidershack.com

I had an ephiphany
as clear as a night sky
with nuclear stars
listening to Dolly Parton
everything was clear

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Horse and Crystal in Winter


Melissa Billington, Todd Rippon

My new play, "Winter" which I have been writing since the day I came to New Zealand (10 June 05) received a wonderful reading at the Newtown Community Centre as part of the Magdalena Aotearoa National Gathering on 6th April 07.

Following the reading the audience gave fabulous feedback in a supportive environment and it will now be fine tuned and prepared for the final draft for its New Zealand premiere.

Friday, April 06, 2007

What's the Worst Thing That Can Happen


14th St. Subway, Downtown F Train, Nov. 2006.

A song about the worse thing that can happen when you get drunk

"I Miss You"
to see lyrics: www.dangerousdiane.com

Catch a Fire Review by Spodarek

“Catch a Fire,” France/UK/South/Africa/USA, Director: Philip Noyce, Screenplay: Shawn Slovo, with Derek Luke and Tim Robbins. World Cinema Showcase, Wellington, New Zealand

“Catch a Fire” is a remarkable film based on the life of Patrick Chamusso a black South African man. Although it is one of many stories of oppression during Apartheid, this one dares to show how one man’s own personal actions contributed to his arrest and torture under Apartheid. Read more and see pic: http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/915

Heartbreak Hotel Review by Spodarek

Heartbreak Hotel, Swedish, Director/Screenplay: Colin Nutley. World Cinema Showcase, Wellington, New Zealand

“Heartbreak Hotel” is the Swedish version of “Thelma and Louise,” except there is no rape, no murder, no crime sprees, no cops, no double suicide, and no (unknown-then) Brad Pitt. So, what is the connection? It’s a movie with two smart, sexy and funny 40+ women as the protagonists, but not a chic flick (not that that title makes any sense to describe women’s point of view in a film.) It is a radical film though because there is no nudity, no sex, no violence and the men look like buffoons. Read more and see great pic:
http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/913

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Black Snake Moan a review by Spodarek

Samual L. Jackson is Black Snake Moan. See my reivew from the World Cinema Showcase 2007 in Wellington, New Zealand:

Black Snake Moan by Writer/Director Craig Brewer opens and closes with black and white archival footage of Mississippi Delta Blues Man Son House (1902-1988) talking about the blues: how the blues can move you to do anything, even move you to kill. Powerful stuff.

Samuel L. Jackson and Christina Ricci are compelling characters as Lazarus and Rae, an unlikely couple to form a friendship other than a sexual one. Not that Rae doesn’t try, but Lazarus reaches for his bible and tells the Lord that if He dumps this white chick in his path, he will do his best to redeem her of her whoring nymphomaniac ways. Read more:
http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/902

Friday, March 30, 2007

Silent Retreat



24 March, 2007, Moon in Gemini

Charcoal drawing
Poem written on drawing:

when the dark side of the moon
becomes two
they huddle together
and walk toward silence

Friday, March 16, 2007

Bent Not Broken - A Review


Here is my review as it appears in Lumiere Reader. However, I would like to provide my original review as written before the theatre editor changed it. Although I agreed to the changes, I now feel I would like to present the original review, as I wrote it because it represents what I saw at the theatre that night. In particular, I would like to put back in the last sentence of the opening paragraph (after: some children survive, some do not.) which was deleted: "Anyone who survives a mother who always had money for drink but not for food is a survivor."

Bent Not Broken
BATS Theatre, Wellington, New Zealand
March 13-16 | Reviewed by Diane Spodarek

Bent Not Broken is a solo performance, based on Lauren Roche’s autobiographical novel of same name. Lauren’s story is about growing up in New Zealand – and for a short time Australia – under extraordinary circumstances: an extreme environment of abuse by alcohol and drug addicted people. These included her own mother, father, friends of the family, relatives, strangers and later boyfriends, husbands and johns. The consequences of this environment are all too common. Some children survive, some do not. Read more: http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/874

Original review will be posted on my website when I finish the next lesson on how to make changes on my website:
www.dangerousdiane.com

Monday, March 12, 2007

In the Cellar of My Heart



photo by Marjorie McKee
Newtown Community Centre,
Wellington, New Zealand,
March 7, 2007

Monday, March 05, 2007

Skeleton Woman: A Review

Skeleton Woman. Fringe 07.
A performance collaboration. Performed by Helen Moran, Written by Kathleen Gallagher and Helen Moran, Directed by Jane Gilmer. Wellington Performing Arts Centre, 2-4 March 2007


Skeleton Woman is billed as a performance collaboration. The show is a solo performance by Helen Moran based on an Inuit myth as recounted by Clarissa Pinkola Estes’ in her book, Women Who Run with the Wolves.

Read More:

http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/855

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Canned Shoots

Canned Shoots.
Killing animals. Pay to kill animals. Large exotic animals. Pay someone to kill an animal for a trophy. Pay money to kill. Enjoy killing. Enjoy hurting those who can’t speak for themselves.

Many of the animals are retired from zoos and circuses. Bred in captivity they often don’t run away when approached by a man or woman with a gun. Canned shoots exist everywhere, including my home state New York. There is a bill to offer tax incentives for canned shoots.

We must do our part to let our representatives know that we OPPOSE bill A. 5150.

This bill would provide tax exemptions for wealthy patrons of canned shoots. Personally I just can't follow the logic of this. Why would the state offer a tax deduction to kill animals?

Many humanitarians, and just ordinary folk like me, believe that the way we treat those who cannot speak is the foundation for how we treat all life, including human life.

If you are a New York resident please contact your representatives. Here they are for an easy reference. You can just click to send an instant email saying you oppose bill A.5150.

Assembly Speaker Sheldon Silver
NYS Assembly, L.O.B., Albany NY 12248
Ph.: 518-455-4911
Fax: 518-455-5459
Speaker@assembly.state.ny.us

Assembly Member Herman "Denny" Ferrell
NYS Assembly, L.O.B., Albany NY 12248
Ph.: 518-455-5491
Fax: 518-455-5776
Farrelh@assembly.state.ny.us

Thank you for reading this. There will be more information on my blogs on canned shoots to follow with specific information on where they exist in New York...and in New Zealand where I am living in the moment. Someone told me an "American" has set up canned shoots here. I'm hoping it's a rumour.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

New Gig at Newtown Community Festival

Here we go again.
For those of you who say sometimes you can’t tell where I’m at, this gig is in New Zealand.


Two short new plays by Diane Spodarek will premiere in the NEWTOWN COMMUNITY FESTIVAL in March.

“Marley and Rachel & A Body Part” a brief glimpse into a love story between the homeless in New York City. Directed by Barry Lakeman, featuring Kazz Funky Blue as Marley and Paulette McIndoe as Rachel.

“In the Cellar of My Heart” a short story about suicide. Directed by Marjorie McKee, featuring a solo performance by Diane Spodarek.

Newtown Community Centre, Colombo St, Newtown. March 7th & 9th at 8 pm. Free.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Imagining Reality - a Review

Imagining Reality, Fringe 07
Devised and performed by Milo Haigh, Sherilee Kahui and Jake Preval with Insomniac and Hummel
BATS Theatre, February 18 –22, 2007


Imagining Reality begins with a film of a woman taking a pee in a toilet. As we watch her, we are collective voyeurs. She never acknowledges us with her eyes but let’s us know she knows we are there with her graffiti writing on the toilet wall: “I can’t believe you are watching this.” We are caught. But safe. We are, after all, the audience. We have come to watch.
More: http://www.lumiere.net.nz/reader/item/828